Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Tears are accumulative.
When the tears banks are full,
it's time to release them.
Let those sorrow and misery flow out at one go, even though it will come back again.


It makes me feel alive.
It is said that, if we cry over something, it's something important to us.
It makes me ponder, are those things that I cried about really important?
Is it a necessity??
One part of me is saying, NO.
Maybe there's no point getting upset over it.
So what if I fail something that I'm supposed to excel in?
I will lost my pride.
My honour.
But, is it that much compared to the rest?
Sometimes I think my pride is worthless.
Cause' in exchange, I lost so much more.
Yet another side of me..
But after fighting for so many years,
am I willing to just fail like that?
It's such a contradiction..

Maybe I won't feel so upset once I learn how to let things go.

Sometimes, I think even though I'm with my second family..
I'm still trapped within the 4 walls,
filled with silent screams and yelps.
Even though I'm feeling rather helpless in my present situation,
I feel so glad that I have people to confide in my other parts of my life previously..
For now, I need to depend on myself..
Swallow down those tears,
and carry on..

dozing off at 11:48 PM