Friday, October 30, 2009

Okay, it has been an unlucky week..

Monday was gek project due date. We had to rush through all the nonsense and shit last min. I got quite pissed off actually... But am real glad that it's over. =) However, I had a real bad flu on the night itself.. which is so bad that... I had to skipped my lab session the next day.

So, like what I have mentioned before, I was sick on tuesday.
I rested the whole day.Not a good one since I was awake and asleep repeatedly. Yupps. But was damn glad that I had my cluster! =) A bunch of nice people whom I'm gonna miss over the holidays. Thank goodness that we are still gonna stay together next sem. =DDD

Anyway, wednesday... I had my first duty at the ice cream booth! =D business was horrible.. o.o I was late for tutorial because of this abrupt stomachache..
So I went back to pgp to rest after my duty and went for my bio lab instead.
THIS IS THE GOOD PART! =D
I MET NICE PLANTS! =D
Pitcherplant, Butterworts, Sundews, Venusflytrap, Bladderworts! =D
However, in the process of knowing these cute things, I was so confused about how that lab session was going! The guy who was explaining was rather softspoken that I couldnt hear him well. Furthermore, there were these 3 guys who were DAMN TALL. So.. No hearing and no visual. I looked so confused that the guy had to come personally and told me that I looked terribly confused!
zzz...
But it was a good session. =D HOWEVER. some girl went to slap on my head on the bus.
"hello! remember me?!"
"er.. no?"
"SORRY! wrong person!"

Thursday was my makeup lab session. I was slightly late again. =x I had to do the first experiment alone because the lab guy told me that the expt was so simple that I should do alone, when the rest are like paired up. =.= Luckily, weeling and her friend, alvina?
yupps yupps, were there to save my day! =D THANKYOU SO MUCH! The second expt was exhausting I swear.. I was so tired that I made so many mistakes. =( More importantly, I dropped my GC straight hard on the ground that it shattered. The batteries went straight below the fumehoods that I can't retrieve them at all.. And worst of all, the stupid guy was like criticising me the odd one out! Seriously, even though it's nothing much but it's offensive to me. zzz. Ohwells, who ask me to be sucky at Chem..
Wait till one day when I'm gonna excel at it and make him my employee! RAWR.
okay. that's like one long long long long long long long wait before that day though..

Anyway the last day of the week! which is FRIDAY!!! I went for maths tutorial and I swear it's the worst tutorial of the sem cause' I dont understand a single thing what the guy was talking and I was nodding off! zzz. I was totally in deep sleep during bio too! Halfway during ice cream duties, I felt so moody that I decided to go back pgp. =) I think that's really my 2nd home. I went for chem after that and packed stuff up. Got so upset during the evening period.. Sometimes I feel that I'm treated like a dirt.. ANYWAY, HERE I AM!

End of summary.





It's less than a month to exams.
Sometimes I feel like giving up.
Sometimes I don't.
When I told my brother that I'm still at the first chapter of every modules,
he was rather worried.
Am I living up to my parent's expectation?
Am I living up to my brother's expectation?
What about mine?
What is my dream?
I feel that I'm wasting resources and I should really try my best understanding right?
But it's the doing part that's difficult..
I haven't achieve anything yet.
Academic.
Friendship.
Social life.
NOTHING.

What am I doing with my life..

dozing off at 9:59 PM