Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Fell ill from yesterday night until today.
Didn't go for lab session at all!
Felt kinda bad but well, the rest was good.
I slept the whole day thru w/o lunch and stuff.
Still feeling sneezy but at least more human. =)

Anyway,
tomorrow's gonna be flag comm ice cream-ing day!
PLEASE SUPPORT!
onegai!
Ice cream prices range from a dollar to 3!


Anyway, one reason to update was to actually reflect..
yutingg was telling me it's never too late to start..
Although I keep feeling that it's too late,
there is this struggle between the beliefs of thinking it's too late
and the beliefs of wanting to fail trying.
But if I know I will be failing, why should I even bother?

After reading weeling's entry (or maybe a short msg),
I started to feel slightly panicky.
This is my first semester of my first uni year.
Less than a month to exams.
I'm still not doing anything.
I'm still stuck at first lecture of the semester.
What am I actually doing?
Am I feeling happy about this?
I don't know.
I'm feeling nothing.

I have no trust in this school, community.
I have no purpose in this life here.

I don't know what am I doing..

Goodnight.

dozing off at 1:28 AM