Thursday, May 14, 2009

Ahhhhhh, SQ told me to take a look at her blog
to find out who's the guy that she fell over..
NOW I KNOW...
(too bad I don't really rmb his name, ya know?)
hehhhehh.

Anyway, while doing so, I decided to catch up with my friends' blogs and started reading.
Most had a fulfilling; exciting life and that really makes me ponder about mine..
Somehow, this makes me feel that superficiality can be a consequence of fulfillment.

To attain spiritual contentment, one has to satisfy their emotional needs, no?
These include greed; hatred; desire and other negative needs.
By doing so,
one can purchase and consume excessively.
One can also compete for power and fame.
One can also exhibit what they have achieved throughout their life and so on.
All these..
Results in one's security; one's comfort.
They might feel more prepared for the uncertainties in life;
they might feel that they are the stronger or even the strongest survivor;
they might feel everything is within their reach.
Regardless of all these generalizations and assumptions I have made,
I can't deny that with all the physical materials given in my life, there is some form of contentment somehow..

What about fulfillment of other kind of emotional needs?
What do you call the joy of one's blood, sweat and tears?
What do you call the satisfaction of kind acts?
What about enjoying bonds with people around you, even strangers?
I question myself, am I lacking of those?
Probably..
Maybe that's why I feel so.. zzz.


Anyway, I can't really remember how these few months of my life went by.
No driving/ No movie-ing/ No everything.
I went back to school today with SQ for awhile to visit a friends of ours.
[ahh! SAW AH PEK TODAY NEH! hoho. that guy totally forgotten that he's ahpek. =.=]


Although one was smiling and laughing at our jokes,
somehow they felt bitter and sorrow.
It reminds me of the process I went through during my college life.
All the preparation for the major exams;
all the thoughts about being too late to start now and etc
or even thinking that whatever I can do is futile.
All the evil thoughts.
This reminds me..
how's hanns doing now....

WHERE ARE YOU HANNAH!
-deprived of 2s04 classroom life-
I can't deny that I kinda miss school,
but I dont want school to start soon..
The thought of facing something I'm not familiar with..
SUCKS. =.=
All the procedures to be done;
all the thoughts about me forcing myself to be friendly with strangers;
starting new friendships;
'friendly' competitions;
the fake and bitter smiles;
and going through the cycle of throwing my face straight into the book and raising a white flag..
-faints..-

Shall not complain anymore;
cause' it's time for bed yo.
goodnight people

(._.)v <------ fav. face of the year. reminds me of Shifu + 'DO IT NEESAN!'

dozing off at 1:08 AM