Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ahhh, havent been updating.. Almost forgotten that this blog exists. Anyway, I doubt that anyone will be reading this. Been living in my own world, isolating myself alot. Did nothing other than mainly, eating; sleeping; chionging GBA games; Arashi-ing and talking to ppl on msn.

ABSOLUTELY. NO. LIFE.

Anyway, got back A's results. It was above mine and teachers' expectations. Although I know I'm supposed to be really happy over it, since A's is over and I dont have to face it again etc etc, but somehow I'm upset over it. Somehow, I think maybe it's better that it didnt come. I dont know how to comfort ppl. I dont know what to say. I'm worried that what I say/do might hurt them. What can I do? And, with all the ugly true colours revealed. Shocking. Surprising. And yes, disappointing.

Furthermore, the choice-making part aint that good either. (It's good to know that some people know what they want right from the start. For those, I wish them luck. =D) People with less ideal results face problems such as inability to enter courses they desired; forced to enter what's available to them; or even nowhere in some of my friends cases.. Even for those with excellent results, this decision making is unavoidable. The large availabilites of choices didnt make their job easier. Think in the case of probability. If we have to find the probability of choosing the ONE AND ONLY correct major... Isnt it super SMALL? Even if people managed to get into what they wanted, there are still many obstacles.. Interviews, tests and etc etc etc. This is endless.

In addition, aahhhhh! All those friendships, bonds that are built during this pre-college life. I cannot deny that fact that many are leaving Singapore for other countries. I don't know what to say to them.. Afterall, it's their choice. AHHH. I wish them ALOT of luck (all at one go.. Since I dont know when am I gonna talk to them..) and hope that they will earn big bucks with their degrees in the future. PLEASE COME BACK OKAY!!! Even for those who are still staying in Singapore, I really hope we will still stay in contact.. AH. (more gatherings please!)

AHHHHHHH- In the end, somehow in my opinion, things didn't really get any better. I miss those days before A's. I feel more.. happy than now at least..? (wth, am I some kind of sadist that enjoy studying? HELL NO.) AHHHHHHHH- I'm feeling rather confused now. Mixed feelings. But, there's no point looking back to the past right? (other than reminiscing..) OKAY. WAKEY.

BACK TO REALITY.

goodnight people.
I MISS YOU SCHOOL PPL!

dozing off at 11:38 PM